I almost threw in the towel this week. Between writing deadlines, kids’ schedules, and feeling behind on just about everything, the mental spiral was real. Which is exactly why I realized this might be the worst possible time to quit.

I know He is trustworthy. I know His plans are good. And yet… sometimes I don’t. Which brings me to Thomas—the disciple who believed, but still needed to see. Relatable, right?

Most scholars believe God flips between calling him Jacob and Israel to show that even after receiving a new identity, he still struggled with fear and weakness. Jacob when he relied on himself… Israel when he trusted God.

I’ve wanted to write for years, but I kept waiting until I felt confident and ‘ready.’ Turns out, God wasn’t asking for polished — just for a willing yes.